A Jedi Trial

Trial of Flesh,
Trial of Courage,
Trial of Skill
and Trial of Self, "facing the mirror"


I am a Jedi Knight
Lost, confused and feeling weak
Struggling with demons that I must fight
Driven to push beyond this feat

Massive training to undergo
Do it trembling if I must
I will make my gnostic grow
"Master" of the Force is what I lust

Tear my flesh with such strife
Battle all evil without delight
I bear this burden in my life
The knowledge grows, alas I must fight

Strip my courage from its place
Await, my safe haven to devour
I'll stand and deliver with grace
As I dive into this power

Test my skills, if you may
Feeling my spirit begin to lift
Don't consider me a wounded prey
For I call upon this special gift

Forced to reflect upon this mirror
Joyful thoughts I can't express
I've passed the trials without fear
Behold a Master, nothing less

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You are probably thinking that this poem was based off of the Jedi Trials. Well, in part it was. But also based off a real life experience that I am going through right now. Henceforth this blog, which I think is a great topic to open for discussion. A comparison: Jedi Trials vs. Real Life Trials. Real life trials can range from jobs to relationships to school. It does not matter. Life in general is a trial that we all must go through...The choices are unlimited. This is not about religion, but life and the trials or experiences we go through to survive, grow and mature as humans. With that maturity, comes knowledge, which should be passed on to future generations.

Thus, for example, I have a new job, in the legal field, which is very demanding. My boss would be considered a Jedi Master and, I, her apprentice, or Jedi Knight. I compare her to Obi-Wan and me to Anakin. I think I'm beyond the Padawan stage at this point in my career, but whatever. I have been at this new job for about four (4) weeks now. Needless to say, I am exhausted from having the kitchen sink and everything in between thrown at me. Not only must I perform, but I must learn everything my Jedi Master is teaching me. I'm surprised I have enough Force juice to write this blog, let alone be creative and write a poem.

Last night, as I tried to take a HUGE Force leap past my Master's office, but failed, she stopped me and asked how I was doing. I almost went mental on her, mostly because I was so exhausted and tired. Funny thing is, she was sooooooo demanding yesterday, but she managed to take the time, at the end of the day, to talk with me and bring me back to planet Earth. We debated over many things last night, with our conversation ending like this:

Master: (Master) Kerry and I, want you to play with us
Me: *....Jokingly states....* But of course. I always play.
Master: No, you don't understand...We want you to play with us.
Me: *...Silently thinks to self....D'uh...What? I thought I was already on the Team*
Master: *...Shakes head....* We want you to be on the Senior (Master) Team, because we know you will play with us.
Me: *....Legally blond moment...* Oh, okay.

There you have it. You have just witnessed me, being dubbed a Jedi Master...Anti-climatic, isn't it? The whole time I'm at this new job, trying to learn it, getting stressed out and losing sleep, my Master has been testing me and putting me through hell or a trial of some sort....What nerve! Believe me, took everything I had not to do a "Purge" and knock everybody off with my FX lightsaber in the department, including my Master.

Don't get me wrong, I am very honored to be a part of the "Master" Senior Team, but I also don't want my quality of life to be depleted either. My blog time has been depleted, my gym time has been depleted and most of all, my FUN time has been depleted. My only hope is that I will get to retire at an early age. Life moves so fast that focusing just on this small piece, and nothing else, makes me sad. Some how, I must find balance between this new job and my personal life. A work in progress this will be.

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The Jedi Code:

There is no emotion; there is peace.
There is no ignorance; there is knowledge.
There is no passion; there is serenity.
There is no death; there is only the Force.

Jedi are the guardians of peace in the galaxy.
Jedi use their powers to defend and protect, never to attack others.
Jedi respect all life, in any form.
Jedi serve others rather than ruling over them, for the good of the galaxy.
Jedi seek to improve themselves through knowledge and training.

So, this blog got me to wondering about a few things. Especially the Jedi Code and its theories. If society were to apply the above Jedi Code to every day life, how do you think it would shape our world? Do you think it would shape our world for better or worse? Do you think it would be different? In what ways do you think it would be different?

I can tell you this: Things would be a lot better at work if my boss and co-workers applied this Code. And, I tend to think, that the World would probably be a better place too, if society applied the theories of this Code. However, it just takes one "tweak head" to twist everything beyond interpretation or debate every single word and its meaning, instead of looking at it for what it is...Let go, Live simple, live free, live to learn, learn to love, learn to live, learn to respect and pass on what you have learned.
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Inspirational Quotes for you to ponder:

Your talent is God's gift to you.
What you do with it is your gift back to God.

- Leo Buscaglia -

All men who have achieved great things
have been great dreamers.

- Orison Swett Marden -

A champion is someone who gets up,
even when they can't.

- Natalie Rogers -