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Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date posted: Jun 14, 2007 8:27 PM  |  updated: Jul 04, 2007 8:44 PM
A little boy -- to a young man -- to a Father
I've added a few things. Feel free to read it again.


Tattoonie - a place where my mother takes care of me.
I am a slave.
My mother and I are the property of Watto. He own's a fix it shop.
People break it -- I fix it. Watto also makes me join in the pod races.
I'm the only human that can do it.
I dream of the day I will fly away from Tattooine and become a Jedi.
I don't know how this will happen. I just know it will.

One day you come walking into my world. You are Jedi Master
Qui-Gon Jinn. You need parts for your space ship. Watto makes a
deal with you If I win the pod race, I'm free to leave with you.
You want to take my mother also. Watto won't allow it. I win the race
and you get to take me with you in your space ship. I want my mom
to come also. She tells me that it is ok to leave. I don't like change.
I want things to stay the same.

I find myself standing in front of the Jedi Council. They are debaiting
on wether or not to train me as a Jedi. They tell Qui-Gon that
I will not be trained. Qui-Gon states that he will have to
train me himself. Master Yoda objects. An apprentance you
already have. Impossable for you to have two.
Obi-Wan is ready for the trials. Qui-Gon says. I'm taking on a new apprentace. Qui-Gon will die before he can trully begin to train me. My training will take place under newly appointed Jedi Master Obi-Wan Kenobi.

10yrs later
I'm nineteen now. I have learned a great deal from
Master Obi-Wan. I want to go thru the trails. I want to prove that
I'm a Jedi Knight. I want the council to look at me not with disdain.
I want the council to look at me with approvel. I want them to see what
Qui-Gon saw. A Jedi Knight. The one who will bring balance to the force.

You walk back into my life. You are Senator Padme Amidala.
I am givin the task of escorting you back to your home on Naboo, after
someone tries to kill you upon your arrival to Coruscant.
I finally get a chance to prove to the Council that I'm ready to become
a Jedi Knight.

A Jedi is to have no personal attachmenats. A Jedi is to give up all
material things. A Jedi is to live a life of service to the order.

I have nightmears about my mother while I'm watching over Padme.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I have a duty to keep Padme safe.

Padme and I are also falling in love.
I tell Padme that I need to go and find my mother. I need to know that she is safe. Padme says she will go with me. Padme has as way of keeping me calm.
Padme and I go to Tatooine looking for my mother. We find that she's
been taken by Tuskin Raiders. They are holding her in their camp.
I go to rescue her. I find her. She dies in my arms.
All I feal is RAGE.
I slaughter the entire camp. Men, Women, children. My rage is my power.
Rage feels really gooooood. I feeds my power in the force.
I confess my slaughter to Padme. She tells me that being angry is human.
"I'm a Jedi." " I know I'm better than this."

She and I marry in a quiet ceremony. C3-PO and R-2 are the only witnesses.

3rys later
I'm a Jedi Knight. The hero without fear.
I have just rescued Chanclor Palpatine from General Grevious.
I'm walking on cloud nine. I see Master Windu. He makes me feel
very small. He doesn't approve of me. I know I'm better then he is.
I could take him anyday.

Padme tells me she's pregnet. She and I are going to be parents. I start having nightmears of her dying in childbirth. After loosing my mother, I am
determined not let this one come true.
I start to embrace my anger and hatred for the Jedi Council. They want me to spy on my friend Palpatine.
I hate the idea. I defend the Chancellor to Obi-Wan. I feel he presures me into the request. My rage and anger only start to grow inside me.
This time not even Padme can silence the rage inside me.

I find out that the Chancellor is a Sith Lord. He is also my friend.
I make the choice to help him destory Master Windu. I make the choice
to become the most feared Sith Lord in the galaxey.
I forget how to be the hero. He is dead to me.
I'm going to enjoy the power. I'm going to enjoy being a Sith Lord.

I am on my way to the Jedi Temple. My new master has ordered me
to kill all the Jedi within the temple. I have NO troulble doing this.
I slaughter padawan, after padawan. I slaughter Knight after Knight.
I find a room with younlings. One of them asks me " Master Skywalker,
there are too many of them. What are we going to do." I ignight my
lightsaber. I feel no remorse about what I have done.

I go home to check on Padme and the baby. She is upset. She can see the Jedi Temple burning from her appartment. I want to tell her that I did it.
I burnet the temple. I don't dare. The Jedi are the evil ones. She will not
understand. I just tell her that everthing will be alright. All she needs to do is
wait for me until I return. We will be happy.

I'm on Mustafar. I have just wipped out Nute Gunray and all his "friends."
I am reflecting on all that has happened.

You show up. What are you doing here. I told you to stay home.
You come running to me. You tell me that Obi-Wan came to see you.
He told you what I did at the Jedi Temple. I don't deny it. I just look at
you and tell you we don't need to runaway anymore. Everthing will be
fine. I want you to join me in my quest to rule the Galaxey.
You start telling me about how Obi-Wan was right. I have changed.
You don't know me. I am angry. I don't want to hear about Obi-Wan.
I just want you.
I see Obi-Wan walking off YOUR ship. I start screaming at you. Why did you
have to bring him here. You are on HIS side.

I have a fight with Obi-Wan. I get the upper hand. He gets the upper hand.
He tells me not to try jumping. It will not work. I tell him not to underestamate my new power.

He cuts my arm. He cuts my legs. I fall to the ground. He tells me that
I was the chosen one. I was to bring balance to force. Not leave it in darkness.

I am burning. I can feel the lava tear my skin from my bones. I am determind not to die. My hatered for Obi-Wan and my love of my new powers keep me from dieing.

I am awake now. I have been put into a suite. I ask about Padme.
Sidious tells me that in my anger I killed her. I am Darth Vader.

20rys go by

One day I meet a student of Obi-Wan's. His name is Luke.
Whom does he remind me of? I know there is something about him.
What is it? I see her face. I hear her voice. NO! They died. 20rys ago.
I refuse to admit the posability. I know it's there. I can taste it.

No. I am Darth Vader. Luke will be my apprentace. He will help me destory the Emper. He will learn to embrace the dark side.

I was wrong. Luke would rather die, than join the dark side.
I hear him tell my master " I am a Jedi. Like my father before me."

I am awake now. I must help my son. I must become the hero again.
Sidious his killing my son. It all comes back to me. I let all the memories come flooding back. Dooku. Mace. All of it. I trow my master over the
railing. He is dead.

Where am I? I'm on a ship with my son. I'm dying. I beg my son to take my
mask off. I want to look upon him with my own eyes before I die.
He says that he must save me. I tell him he already has. Please let me look at you with my own eyes.


I see my son. My daughter. Their friends.
I am at peace. I am with old friends. Master Yoda. Master Obi-Wan.
I am Anakin Skywalker -- Jedi Knight and father.:)

  GalacticBabe
I Have a Bad Feeling About This!
date Posted: Jun 14, 2007 9:26 PM
I see my son. My daughter. Their friends.
I am at peace. I am with old friends. Master Yoda. Master Obi-Wan.
I am Anakin Skywalker -- Jedi Knight and father.


I LOVE this!! This is wonderful! So simple, but so complex at the same time. Such is life.:)

Take care, my friend! :x
tornadoalleyjedi
Musings of a Lioness (and her annoying Gungan sidekick)
date Posted: Jun 14, 2007 9:56 PM
Interesting. Anakin's head is hard to get into, and there are lots of different variations in what people think was happening inside it. I think this is one of the better ideas, and I enjoyed reading it.
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jun 14, 2007 11:01 PM
GB -- Thank You!!:)

tornadoalleyjedi-- interesting name
Anakin's head is hard to get into. I think this is one of the better ideas.
Thanks!! It took me a week to write it. I kept changing the ideas around.
I'm glad you enjoyed reading it.
Leia
gencrs
Technical Manuals from The GFFA
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 2:05 AM
That was an awesome entry. I agree with tornadoalleyjedi, that was a great way to see what Anakin was going through. That's a great entry for Father's day.
jediprincess77
I Know...
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 6:23 AM
Neat idea! It's sooo hard to figure out what is going on in that head of his... This was really cool to read!:)
jedilily1026
Years Matter Not (Gone Crazy...Be Back Soon)
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 7:45 AM
It's a shame that Anakin never really got to be the father he "could" have been!!!!

Great post!!!:D
jedilily1026
Years Matter Not (Gone Crazy...Be Back Soon)
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 7:45 AM
It's a shame that Anakin never really got to be the father he "could" have been!!!!

Great post!!!:D
The Stooge
Star Wars Joke-A-Day
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 9:35 AM
Man, he really didn't update his diary too often, did he? ;)
Darth_Hiram
A Journey into The Force
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 9:45 AM
Great entry ... interesting take on the thoughts of Anakin. Somehow, his life is poetic isn't it?
padmeskywalker77
Padme's Legacy
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 10:20 AM
Loved it!! I can tell you put a lot of thought into this.

Wonderful entry :)
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jun 15, 2007 10:50 AM
Great entry for Father's day --- you know I worked on this so long, I didn't think about
it being Father's day Sunday when I posted it.

This was really cool to read -- Thanks:)

It's a shame Anakin never really got to be the father he "could" have been
Yep! I personally think he would have made a good one. Thanks!!

He really didn't update his diary --- Happy Father's Day to you!! Enjoy it!!!;)

HIs life is poetic --- Yes it is:) Thanks!

Loved it -- Thanks You!!
ewanandhaydenfan5
I Have You Now!
date Posted: Jun 16, 2007 9:26 AM
That was beautiful! I love to see the saga through Anakin's eyes. Great job!
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jun 18, 2007 9:16 PM
That was beautiful!!

Thanks. It took some work to write through Anakin's eyes.:)
Jade Sabre777
A luminous being, I am...
date Posted: Jun 19, 2007 5:35 PM
Great entry!!
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jun 19, 2007 6:34 PM
Great entry!!

Thanks!! Glad you liked it!!
megatrends
Confessions of a Psychotic Jawa
date Posted: Jun 21, 2007 6:55 PM
Wow that was great, sums up the whole thing too. A life of tremendous tragedy and a misguided young fool. Easily led perhaps and not strong willed for certain. Craving something he was never able to fill inside of him until realizing one day that the only way to be was to go back through his own redemption through his own son's faith in him as a person.

A great stoy Anakin was.
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jun 21, 2007 7:08 PM
Craving something he was never able to fill inside him --- Thanks for the comment.

Anakin slowly died inside -- 1st leaving his mom, 2nd loosing his mom, 3rd only having
Obi-Wan stick up for him. The rest of the council never really trusted him.

Luke definatly had faith in Anakin. He hoped that faith woud shine thru. In the end it did.
FAN4YRS
A Rebel's Ramblings
date Posted: Jun 26, 2007 4:59 AM
Great blog entry. It really points out how much Anakin went through and how it would have been difficult for anyone to process it properly.
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jun 26, 2007 11:47 AM
It would have been difficult for anyone to process it properly --- Unfortunalty that's the biggest problem dealing with Anakin. He didn't know how to process his visions of his mom, and Obi-Wan didn't offer any soluiton. Padme's visions came and he didn't know how to tell Obi-Wan the truth in order for the vision to become positive.

Thanks for leaving a comment.
  GalacticBabe
I Have a Bad Feeling About This!
date Posted: Jul 02, 2007 7:01 PM
Hey, I LOVE the new additions!:D I live the way you could get into Anakin's head.

  GalacticBabe
I Have a Bad Feeling About This!
date Posted: Jul 02, 2007 7:02 PM
Oops.....typos! I love the way.....:8}
leia19886
Some One get this big walking carpet out of my way
date Posted: Jul 02, 2007 10:28 PM
Love the new additions!![/b

Thanks!! I was watching ROTS on HBO for like the millionth time and just started
writing. Glad you liked the additions.;)
Leia
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