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by: Darth Jecod

date posted: Jan 08, 2007 3:31 PM | updated: Mar 14, 2007 5:00 PM

The stuggle for more power

Peer pressure is something we all know about, talk about, learn about, and most experience some form of it. There is positive or negative pressure. When most people talk about negative peer pressure, they mean drinking, smoking, and hanging out with the wrong groups. A lot of people succumb to peer pressure without even knowing.

I have talked to people before about my experiences with peer pressure, and they ask, why? They tell me I am a smart, funny, independent, handsome kid, but I still don't believe this since the day it left their mouths. I thought peer pressure was for the nerds, and weak kids in our school. I was wrong.

I probably worry more than anyone about how, or what people see me as. I want to be seen as a respected, truthful, and trusted teen. It seems I want this so badly that I am in a sense becoming the very thing I swore to not to become..., a politician.

A politician because, I am always trying to please everyone, and say the right thing. I agree with people that make no sense, or that I totally don't agree with. When one of the so called 'popular' kids comes up to me and talks, I am suddenly his or her best friend. I tell them all the secrets of other kids that sadly befriended me. Why? To gain the respect of the 'higher', and loose respect of the 'lower'? No. To be cool and liked be them, and not the others? No. To gain power? Yes.

Why do I crave power? Doesn't everybody? Is it my nature? I think that I think that more power will lead to more respect. While I sit here listening to my Revenge of the Sith soundtrack I am reminded of Palpatine's quote, "All who gain power are afraid to loose it." Wanting more is a rough definition of a Sith. Wanting more so I can be successful seems even worse. Being successful leads to respect, which is what I seek the most.

I tried so hard on my first few blogs, I wanted them to be successful, be the most read, most responded to, even have my blog be one of the featured blogs. Now I know that this isn't what it is all about, I don't care if any of you respond to my blogs, heck, even read them! When I say that I don't mean to put any of you down, I am truly thankful for all of you out there. Writing this blog has indeed been the most eyes opening to myself. It finally comes down to this; I don't need others to respect me, if I respect myself, because I can't please everybody. I don't respect myself very much. If I can learn how to respect myself and not seek it so badly from other people, I think I will be in pretty good shape. Thank you.

May The Force Be With You, Always

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	the_wookiee_has_no_pants Pantless Wookiee
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 3:36 PM I'm not sure craving for power and wanting to make a good impression on everybody are necessarily the same thing... are they?

	Darth Jecod Grinded into little pieces and then writen into oblivion
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 3:44 PM I don't think that they are the same. Sometimes making a good impression, and gaining respect leads to more power for that individual. Thanks for the comment.

	GalacticBabe I Have a Bad Feeling About This!
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 4:40 PM You sound like you really have your head on straight. I recently had an epiphany....I really don't give a rat's behind what others think of me. That used to be a big problem for me--always wanting to please everyone. but I discovered you CAN'T please everyone. So why try? I just wish I had come to this realization at your age.

jedilily1026
Years Matter Not (Gone Crazy...Be Back Soon)

date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 5:03 PM

I agree with people that make no sense, or that I totally don't agree with. When one of the so called 'popular' kids comes up to me and talks, I am suddenly his or her best friend. I tell them all the secrets of other kids that sadly befriended me. Why?

Telling others secrets is a no- no and no way to make friends respect you. I'm so glad you've realized that. The blogging here at SW.com should be a fun, learning experience. I know I'm having fun and have made a number of friends. That's what it's all about.

	Master Ki-Aaron-Mundi I was a Teenage Jedi
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 6:04 PM It seems to me that the blogs that are most successful are the ones that someone writes because he really wants to write it, not because he's seeking to be recognized for it. The same is true of real life--it's the sincere actions that are most successful in earning respect, but the ones carried out with alterior motives often simply don't ring true.

Master Ki-Aaron-Mundi
I was a Teenage Jedi

date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 6:04 PM

Of course, everyone likes a little recognition along the way. But generally speaking, if one is willing to put his nose to the proverbial grindstone, the recognition will come with time.

Personally, I've recently developed an interest in Stoicism, a brand of philosophy. It teaches that you can't bog yourself down with things you can't control (including other people's opinions of you), and should instead focus on those things directly within your control.

	Darth Jecod Grinded into little pieces and then writen into oblivion
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:04 PM This why I am so glad that I realize that blogging isn't for self recognition, it is for fun. I am electric with happiness!

	Darth Jecod Grinded into little pieces and then writen into oblivion
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:07 PM It teaches that you can't bog yourself down with things you can't control (including other people's opinions of you), and should instead focus on those things directly within your control. Stated like a true master, I am start to like this philosophy a lot.

	mandalorian192 What an Incredible Smell You've Discovered!!
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:20 PM Blogging is fun! I'm so glad I signed up for Hyperspace because I can now talk to real SW fans (because there aren't any in my area (that i know of).

darth_morbus
Star Wars: Storylines and Concepts, and What We Wish We Could See

date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:28 PM

Stoicism is a good idea, but also consider Bhuddism.

Don't worry whatsoever about your power or influence over other people. Be concerned strictly with your ability to accomplish things completely on your own, and lead purely by example, if you must lead at all. Those who must be led are not autonomous; be concerned only with your own autonomy, or intellectual and emotional independence from all external influences, and then go from there.

jediileia
There is No Death; There is the Force

date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:33 PM

I find blogging fun because it helps every SW geek talk with like-minded people! Where I live, there are precious few SW fans.

As for the peer pressure thing, I don't want to act the way anyone else wants me to. Actually, I've given up because there's a group of girls that no matter what I say, I get "the Stupid Look." I have no idea what it means and I'm really not saying anything that's hard to understand so I just try to be nice.

Sometimes it's pointless to worry about these things....sadly, I'm a hypocrite when it comes to this, but hopefully I'll become more mature! Good luck to ya!

	darth maul517 Darth Jedi Maul Secura
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:50 PM I know what it is like. I went through that. I was afraid to say I liked Star Wars because I was soughta kinda friends with them. Well not anymore. I know who my friends are and am not afraid to say what is on my mind. Anyway, I plan to keep reading your blogs so your going to have to learn to deal with me. Good Luck my friend.

	Darth Jecod Grinded into little pieces and then writen into oblivion
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:55 PM Anyway, I plan to keep reading your blogs so your going to have to learn to deal with me. Good Luck my friend. Deal with your wise comments how about? MTFBWY

	DPM_Shadowluker Fleeting Shadows Of Thoughts
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 11:46 PM Once you realize that how others view you isn't as important as how you view yourself in the mirror, is like taking your first step into a larger universe.... to quote one of the greatest writers of all time, William Shakespeare. "This above all my son, To thine ownself be true"

Kenobi-fan
The Jundland Wastes Journal

date Posted: Jan 09, 2007 7:37 AM

Lots of good comments, but take it from me, childhood/adulthood isn't about power...its all about survival (the more despearate someone is for power, the fearful they are of their own demise). Sadly, many of us pick up habits that appear to make it easy for us to survive, to be accepted, to excel, and/or to be left alone, but in truth they only hamper your own potential. We're all about making life easier for ourselves, which is what being accepted enables us to do, but try not to shy away from tough decisions or difficult situations...there are deeper rewards to be found there. Good luck!

Oriana Dantra

date Posted: Jan 12, 2007 11:17 AM

Being part of the popular group ( especially at school) is definitely about power. Take it from someone who knows what it's like to be on the receiving end of that power : it is far better to be honest and truthful and loyal and above all, to be yourself.
As someone else here stated, you can't please everyone and you shouldn't care what others think of you (look at all the SW fans here, we love you!).

Writing, especially for public viewing is, like most things, something that gets better the more you practice it.

Don't give up!!

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