I'm a huge Star Wars fan, make no mistake about that. One of the things that I say a lot to people when describing how big a fan I am is that, "I'm such a big fan of Star Wars, that I could do a lecture on it".

I feel that I could write entire essays on why I love it so much, what I love about it, my thoughts on it, great things about it few people notice, philosophical stuff in Star Wars, its politics.... anything related to Star Wars.

So, when I heard about Star Wars blogs being offered to Hyperspace members, I thought great, now I can finally put all of my great SW thoughts into proper words and put them up on a place where other fans can read it.

But, I find that it is very, very much more diffifult to do so than I thought. I have like a billion great SW-related thoughts, but when I try to write them out, I can't. Why's that? I don't know.

Could it be that I love Star Wars less than I think so? No, no, that couldn't be the case. I think one of the reasons is that I do not have enough time to do so. But the main reason I think is that as much as I love Star Wars, it's not my story, it's not something I created. I don't like writing about something which I wasn't responsible for nearly as much as something which I'm responsible for.

Right now, I'm in the midst of writing a great epic story. If I were to write articles about it or just comment on it, I think I could. I could rant on about it on and on and on. But not that much for Star Wars.

So, here's what I think about me writing or speaking my thoughts on Star Wars: it's a lot like a filmmaker doing a commentary on a film he didn't do. But that same filmmaker is likely to be more willing, find it easier, and have many, many more things to say about his own film.

Looking around at all the other great blog entries here on blogs.starwars.com, I just wish that I could somehow find it easier to communicate all my Star Wars related thoughts. Well, I guess my statement of "I'm such a big fan of Star Wars, that I could do a lecture on it." isn't true afterall.