Everyone faces a great amount of uncertainty in thier life. We face it on almost every subject. Lately, I feel like I can't be certain of anything any more. I guess it's part of maturing, but it seems like the safe world I used to live in has kinda evaporated as I've grown up. I guess, when you get to be a teenager, you kind of wake up to the world around you, becoming more aware of what it's really about. When I was a kid, I had the ideal opinion of the world. I though that every single politician had everyone elses best interest ahead of thiers, but I've learned that's not the case. I never realized that kids my age could be so messed up, so disturbed, but I'm now almost the same age as the Columbine kids. I though that every thing was good, and that there was a big, bold line between good and evil. But as you grow, break out of your parents shadow and step out on your own, you start to realize that nothing is really how you view it as a kid. It just seems that lately, I face uncertainties every day. There are just so many questions and fears that I have, and my friends have as well. I guess it's a little more nerve racking now, seeing as how we(teenagers) can never be certain that out school won't be the next one were a kid cracks. I, with my friends, face that uncertainty everyday as we walk into school. Even my faith can't seem to hold up lately. When your a kid, it just seems so much easier to believe, to blindly follow your heart. But when you get older, you seem to lose that, and you don't find it as easy to believe anymore. You need cold hard fact to tell you what is real and what isn't.

I realized that this must be how Anakin felt, sitting alone in the Jedi Council chamber in Revenge of the Sith. A man that he'd trusted since hes was nine years old had betrayed him. But at the same time, the man who had never misguided him, who'd always kept Anakin's best interest at heart, had told him that the Jedi were the ones trying to sabotage him. He tried to see past the deceptive cloaks that each figure wore, but you can only look in one direction. While he looks on at one of the parties, the other could be doing something to prove they are the bad ones. It's hard to make a choice in a situation like that, and it always seems easier to go with the one who holds the most power, or at least seems to anyway. Anakin went with this choice, and ultimately, it led to his downfall. I face choices like this everday, to turn back and face the way I once was, and miss the good or bad of the real world, or turn my back on childhood views and face the future, while behind me, many things could be going on. It's a hard, scary choice to make, but one that must be made by all. Even in a Galaxy far, far away.

May the Force be with You