Wow, today just felt like such a wasted day. I really don't feel like I have accomplished much of anything today. The most exciting thing I did today was go to the grocery store with my brother. I sometimes feel bad that I waste so much time doing things that are not really all that important. The fact is I feel like my life up to now has been fairly boring. I do mostly what is expected of me and I feel like I do no more and no less than that. I guess what I am trying to say is that I need to find more ways to spend my free time than just sitting around my apartment watching television or getting on the internet. I really need to get out there and do something fun or something that is more worthwhile. Something that could actually help other people around me.

I often feel like I am just drifting through life, just hoping that someday things will become more interesting. Well, I have come to the conclusion that this just isn't good enough. I need to put myself out there more and quit feeling sorry for myself because I don't have that many close friends. I know that it's my own fault for being such a home body. I am grateful for the friends that I do have and should spend some more time with them.

I really am a very shy person and the only way that I will be able to break out of my self-imposed shell is to put myself out there more. Social situations have really made me nervous in the past, so I avoid many social events that I would probably have really enjoyed. I just feel like I fade into the background at a lot of these things and I have real trouble getting to know new people, because I have difficulty starting a conversation with me. I think the solution to the problem would be to put myself in more of these situations that make me feel uncomfortable so that I can become more used to being around new people.

Well, I guess I have ran on enough for today. I really need to go to bed since I have to be at work at 7 am tommorrow.