Today was not really that fun of a day. I went to my cousin's bridal shower. That didn't really bother me except we had to drive there and back and I just really didn't feel like it today. I just have so much stuff going on right now. I'm currently looking for a job and going to a gathering of family is not very fun because everyone is always asking whether I have found a job yet. I know that they mean well, but being reminded that I need to find a job just makes me feel worse and worry about everything even more.

Also, if I were my cousin I would not be getting married. She is only 18 and is just getting ready to graduate from high school. I just graduated from college and am just now starting to think of the possiblity of some day getting married. I know that every person is different and things may work out fine for her, but I would have probably waited a while longer. I am happy for her and wish her all the luck in the world, I just hope that she is not getting married too young and hope she will not regret it. I guess only time will tell.

I guess that's enough for today. Maybe tommorrow will be better and I will feel less in a funk. I am going to see ROTS again tommorrow. Maybe for at least a little while I can forget about my problems.