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Star Wars: Storylines and Concepts, and What We Wish We Could See

by: darth_morbus

date posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:22 PM

Am I sinister at heart?

I have to wonder, folks: is there a part of me that's given over to the Dark Side?

I was a Black Sabbath and general old-school heavy metal fan for almost 40 years. I loved Captain Black (Capt. Scarlet & the Mysterons), the Klingons, the Terran Empire, Darth Vader, all the general bad guys in any mythos. I had a brief turn with the dark occult in my mid-twenties. My mother's side of my family is notorious for black-light-glaring morbidity and I'm the worst yet, writing hundreds of poems and tons of short fiction about death, death, death... Sometimes I scare the crap out of people.

In the real world, I'm very positive. I love and care deeply about animals, Native American rights, I'm very sociopolitically progressive and care very deeply about all kinds of issues. I've never committed a crime nor done anything evil to anybody. My fuzzy cat and I love each other very much.

So, why is it that when I'm sojourning in the world of The Galaxy Far, Far Away that I desperately want to be the Death Star Gunner (and hear the screams of the Alderaanians)... be a Sith Lord and abuse the crap out of my Force Choke power on everything that moves... shoot down Rebel transports full of medics, wounded and civilians with my TIE Interceptor... slaughter temples full of younglings and suck the life out of whole worlds through the power of the Dark Side?

In real life, I'm very anti-authoritarian and pro-Earth. I want good conditions for everybody. I hate cruelty and malice. I hate racism, sexism, phobias, capitalism, warmongery etc. ... yet I fear that in the Galaxy I would make Darth Vader look like Jocasta.

What's wrong with me? Why did I build my Build-Your-Own-Lightsaber as a Sith blade? Why do I imagine billions screaming out in anguish as worlds come apart in the throes of death in the heat of my Death Star Beam? Why do I savor my alter-ego as a Dark Lord? (I have a Rebel one, too, but the Imperial one all too often wins out...)

Be glad, everyone, that Star Wars is here to absorb all these dark energies from me... well, most of them anyway. I'm certain that I would easily fall to the Dark Side if I were to find myself in that distant place in the next moment, and doing great evil.

Or I might just be a smuggler with a Y-1300 and a blaster, an attitude and a Wookie.

What gives? Am I sinister at heart, people?

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	mandalorian192 What an Incredible Smell You've Discovered!!
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:26 PM Yes. Maybe you are, but not saying that I'm not like that sometimes. PS. I also did my Build-Your -Own-Lightsaber a Sith one (the first time)

	JawaJoey Return of the Jawa
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:38 PM What's important is what you do. What we dream does not change who we are. Playing violent videogames doesn't make someone violent. It's a way for people indulge more sinister desires safely and in fun. It's because you can't and don't act that way that makes it all the more interesting. But there's nothing wrong with that.

	darth maul517 Darth Jedi Maul Secura
date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 7:41 PM Lets look at what you said. You say you are a all aroung great, caring person. So maybe your trying to live a different side of yourself through Star Wars. My thoughts.

Darth Jecod
Grinded into little pieces and then writen into oblivion

date Posted: Jan 08, 2007 8:58 PM

My thought are the Star Wars is a possible escape for you. I gives you a chance to be dark, and here the screams of the Alderaanians that you like. I have always been dark, this blog reminds me of my first. I always am a Sith in the video game, or imperial in Battlefront, and have the red sithlike blade on my build-your-own lightsaber kit. I think that is just a release. I hope I have been of service to you.

	gatorjedi1969 Shhhhh. You hear that?
date Posted: Jan 09, 2007 8:57 AM Odd how you hate capitalism, yet it is this very capitalism that has let you experience all these 'dark' things SW that you enjoy so much. A bit ironic if you ask me.

	Kenobi-fan The Jundland Wastes Journal
date Posted: Jan 09, 2007 10:09 AM One word: balance (or unbalanced)....your choice.

the_wookiee_has_no_pants
Pantless Wookiee

date Posted: Jan 19, 2007 5:50 PM

There's nothing wrong in being into metal. Metal and being a "very anti-authoritarian and pro-Earth" who wants "good conditions for everybody" and "hate[s] cruelty and malice. I hate racism, sexism, phobias, capitalism, warmongery" are not incompatible. We all have a dark side, and there's nothing wrong in living out that dark side in a fictional universe, like the Star Wars one, or in art, like in heavy metal... better that than living it out in the real world and cause harm to other people.

	darth_morbus Star Wars: Storylines and Concepts, and What We Wish We Could See
date Posted: Jan 25, 2007 11:11 PM Capitalism? Well, this is true - however despite the consumerist aspect, Lucas also rebelled against the Hollywood system to retain control of his art, so for me there is a difference.

	the_wookiee_has_no_pants Pantless Wookiee
date Posted: Feb 12, 2007 3:19 AM I think Lucas said once in an interview that e had become Darth Vader, meaning that in fighting against Hollywood capitalism and corporations, he had become a corporation himself

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