5 months.

5 long months since the promise of larger things took me away from my beloved fandom. Star Wars, I've missed you.

You know how it is when a new obsession takes hold? You feel like a kid, everything is new and you absolutely must learn everything you possibly can. I was that way about Star Wars once, but lately I've found that my entire allegiance is not to this fandom. I've become what I least expected: a Disney Nut, a Pirates fanatic, a writer, and a college student.

I know, I know. Shame on me. I still geek out about Star Wars, just not as much. I found last night while watching the Original Original version of ESB for the first time that I still know the films like the back of my hand and any slight change seems major. I still know the soundtracks by heart. I still read Star Wars novels. My room is still filled with Star Wars posters, action figures, autographed photos, lightsabers, and die-cast replicas.

How can it be that my heart is in another place?

The simple answer: it can't be.

That's why I'm coming back. I won't be here as much as I was before, but I'll be here. And that's good enough for me.

It's tougher than it sounds, this finding yourself.

May the Force be with you,
-- i12bajedi