Good day, all!

*hugs!*


I'm going to take a bit of drastic action in my life beginning today. Allow me to explain the strange events which have brought me to such a conclusion:

Not too long ago, I was slightly feverish, my head was spinning, and there was an emptiness in the pit of my stomach which mere eating could not fill. Before taking medication, I usually try to find out what's at the root of the problem. Over the course of a few days, I tried laying down early, thinking that I needed more sleep. It didn't help. I tried eating healthier foods...to no avail. I walked across the bridge and got a breath of fresh air, and though I felt a tad better, it had no lasting value.

So I began to ask myself how this 'illness' could have suddenly come upon me. I could not think of anything I was doing differently. I would wake, wash up, have a bite of breakfast, go preaching, go to work, have a bite of lunch, go back to work, attend my Christian meeting, have a bite of dinner while posting on SW.com, take a shower, and fall asleep watching DVDs. Exact same routine. The only thing that varied was the type of DVDs I would watch. It used to be SW DVDs, but I eventually moved on to Fu Manchu, Monk, and various thrillers. So I reverted back to ROTS. Would you believe I felt better?!!! So I listened to the Star Wars soundtrack the next few days at work, and I progressively improved to the point where I felt like myself again!

This is a true story, ladies and gentlemen! And it almost shames me to admit that I have allowed a science-fictional world to affect me to the point where I feel sick if I don't have it. And the few posts that I make on an almost-daily basis wasn't enough--no! I must also see the movies and listen to the soundtrack regularly to maintain my health.

Sounds like lunacy, right? Indeed it does!

I've had a similar experience before, but that time, it was with my religion. I'd been running a hectic schedule, trying to get a lot of things done, and I wasn't studying the scriptures as deeply as I needed to. I would do surface reading, but I wasn't getting into it and meditating on it the way I should have, and the lack of proper spiritual nutrition took its toll on me, and manifested itself physically. But as soon as I found the time to engage in meaningful, prayerful meditation, I instantly felt better.

Do you see the parallel between these two scenarios? I can't gloss the surface with my religion, or with Star Wars, but I must constantly and deeply be into both in order for me to survive.

Does this mean that I have made a religion out of Star Wars?! It would be awful if I have subconsciously done such a thing, seeing as my unreserved loyalty belongs to God alone.

In view of the foregoing, my resolve is as follows:

1. I will no longer be so deeply engrossed in a fantasy world that it affects my REAL life.

2. I will no longer allow a form of recreation to produce a longing in me that only God's Word should produce (1 Peter 2:2).

3. Beginning today, I will gradually wean myself off of Star Wars until I get to the point where I am able to maintain a balanced view of it. Difficult? Definitely. But it is absolutely necessary in order for me to set my priorities in order.

Even as I type, the tentacles of the sarlacc reach for me and fasten their clammy grip around my heart, which bleeds to see the Original Trilogy. But I will resist! No SW movies for me tonight!

*phew!* There! I've said it. I've admitted my weakness, and resolved to overcome it. I thus begin my journey down the long road to recovery.


P.S: I have no idea if my fellow posters will support me in this endeavor, but even if you disagree, please wish me well as I painstakingly rip myself away from the SW universe, which I love so well. (I will step far enough away from SW to enjoy it in a level-headed way, without being completely sucked in.) Thanks!


*hug and kisses*
-Tee