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 | The Jedi Diariesdate posted: Apr 20, 2006 4:58 PM | updated: Apr 20, 2006 6:33 PM |
Something Quite Disturbing Happened To Me Recently... |
Good day, all! 
*hugs!* 
I'm going to take a bit of drastic action in my life beginning today. Allow me to explain the strange events which have brought me to such a conclusion:
Not too long ago, I was slightly feverish, my head was spinning, and there was an emptiness in the pit of my stomach which mere eating could not fill. Before taking medication, I usually try to find out what's at the root of the problem. Over the course of a few days, I tried laying down early, thinking that I needed more sleep. It didn't help. I tried eating healthier foods...to no avail. I walked across the bridge and got a breath of fresh air, and though I felt a tad better, it had no lasting value.
So I began to ask myself how this 'illness' could have suddenly come upon me. I could not think of anything I was doing differently. I would wake, wash up, have a bite of breakfast, go preaching, go to work, have a bite of lunch, go back to work, attend my Christian meeting, have a bite of dinner while posting on SW.com, take a shower, and fall asleep watching DVDs. Exact same routine. The only thing that varied was the type of DVDs I would watch. It used to be SW DVDs, but I eventually moved on to Fu Manchu, Monk, and various thrillers. So I reverted back to ROTS. Would you believe I felt better?!!! So I listened to the Star Wars soundtrack the next few days at work, and I progressively improved to the point where I felt like myself again! 
This is a true story, ladies and gentlemen! And it almost shames me to admit that I have allowed a science-fictional world to affect me to the point where I feel sick if I don't have it. And the few posts that I make on an almost-daily basis wasn't enough--no! I must also see the movies and listen to the soundtrack regularly to maintain my health.
Sounds like lunacy, right? Indeed it does!
I've had a similar experience before, but that time, it was with my religion. I'd been running a hectic schedule, trying to get a lot of things done, and I wasn't studying the scriptures as deeply as I needed to. I would do surface reading, but I wasn't getting into it and meditating on it the way I should have, and the lack of proper spiritual nutrition took its toll on me, and manifested itself physically. But as soon as I found the time to engage in meaningful, prayerful meditation, I instantly felt better. 
Do you see the parallel between these two scenarios? I can't gloss the surface with my religion, or with Star Wars, but I must constantly and deeply be into both in order for me to survive.
Does this mean that I have made a religion out of Star Wars?! It would be awful if I have subconsciously done such a thing, seeing as my unreserved loyalty belongs to God alone.
In view of the foregoing, my resolve is as follows:
1. I will no longer be so deeply engrossed in a fantasy world that it affects my REAL life.
2. I will no longer allow a form of recreation to produce a longing in me that only God's Word should produce (1 Peter 2:2).
3. Beginning today, I will gradually wean myself off of Star Wars until I get to the point where I am able to maintain a balanced view of it. Difficult? Definitely. But it is absolutely necessary in order for me to set my priorities in order.
Even as I type, the tentacles of the sarlacc reach for me and fasten their clammy grip around my heart, which bleeds to see the Original Trilogy. But I will resist! No SW movies for me tonight!
*phew!* There! I've said it. I've admitted my weakness, and resolved to overcome it. I thus begin my journey down the long road to recovery.
P.S: I have no idea if my fellow posters will support me in this endeavor, but even if you disagree, please wish me well as I painstakingly rip myself away from the SW universe, which I love so well. (I will step far enough away from SW to enjoy it in a level-headed way, without being completely sucked in.) Thanks!
*hug and kisses*
-Tee
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DarthVicomte
Vicomte's Blog Extravaganza (Now Defunct)
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 5:19 PM
I know what you need. Allow Dr, Vicomte, Phd, MD, DDS. RN PLB to write you a prescription...
Firefly/Serenity
---To be taken as needed, until the end of time.
Signed,
Dr. Vicomte, Phd MD DDS RN PLB
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 5:30 PM
Thank you, DarthVicomte, PhD!
Perhaps I will rent the movie!
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JawaJoey
Return of the Jawa
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 5:39 PM
I pre-emptively make a grand sweeping apology as this comment is sure to offend you.
I won't get in to why religion in general, and Christianity are stupid and foolish. Suffice to say, I don't respect anyone who takes something as [negative adjective] as that so seriously.
And you found that Star Wars has great meaning and importance to you. But instead of enjoying that, you decided to cut yourself off from it. An obsession that dictates you to abandon all others is not a good one. I hate it that instead of simply leading the full life you'd like, you'd rather abandon an important part of it.
And only because your religion says so, contrary to your feelings.
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JawaJoey
Return of the Jawa
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 5:39 PM
That your beleifs demand that you devote your sole love to one thing, and disallow any others, is disgusting, and I consider it proof that your religion and it's God are not any ideal entities worthy of worship or even respect.
I'm sad that you've made such a terrible decision.
And I'm terribly sorry that I've been so offensive. I don't wish to make you feel bad, and I know I won't show you the light, but I'm simply speaking my mind. I'm sorry.
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alshf123
Thoughts from a Squib
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 5:45 PM
I personally think that's a bit drastic, maybe you should just cut back a little. But if thats your descision I'll respect that. Good luck.
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JediMasterPickles
Slowly Turning To The Dark Side!
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:09 PM
JawaJoey Go to your room!
To be fair, anyone who takes their religion so seriously that they feel they will upset their deity of choice by liking a Film series has seriouly got to consider the state of their mindset.
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:27 PM
Thank you all for your comments and advice.
But if something grips you so much that you feel physically ill if you don't have it...it's become an addiction which is out of control. And it's something that you should probably step away from.
You'll notice that #3 says that I plan to progressively back away from it until it's something I'm able to be balanced about. Not that I'm going to leave it completely.
And my Deity likely won't be upset about my liking the saga...but if it gets to the point where the saga has as much priority in my life as He does, then of course He's going to be upset...and He has a right to be!
Thanks again for posting!
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Son of a Bith
The Cantina Corner
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:31 PM
In my opinion, something else is bothering you. I do not think you are addicted to SW. That is just a scapegoat. If you are truly addicted to anything, you'll know when because you will shut out everything, including family and freinds.
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Master5334
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:36 PM
It is said there are many similarities between SW and most religions. I personally find that to be BS in terms of Christianity. I dont think a lord who ask us to love one another and get along would begrudge you for loving a movie in which the over all plot is galactic peace and unity. But then again a Priest might say otherwise but keep in mind if it weren't for the offerings you pay he would need to go out and get a real job instead of reading a book you already own to you on sunday mornings
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:40 PM
In my opinion, something else is bothering you. I do not think you are addicted to SW. That is just a scapegoat. If you are truly addicted to anything, you'll know when because you will shut out everything, including family and freinds.
Hi, SOBith!
There are actually some addictions which you can enjoy in the company of your family and friends. I recently had the privilege of explaining EPI to my family as we watched together. 
Thanks for commenting!
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:43 PM
he would need to go out and get a real job instead of reading a book you already own to you on sunday mornings
LOL!  Good one, Master 5334! Actually, I've done a comparative blog on SW and Christianity... see here.
Thanks for your comment!
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jkthunder
Seven Pieces
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 6:52 PM
Cool Christianity comparison jeditee. I recently did a similar kind of blog, except with Star Wars and Buddhism.
Whatever religion it is, having something to "keep your spirit(s) up" is something all of us humans need in some form or another. Star Wars does a good job of it for me too (among other things)
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:03 PM
Awwww, thanks, jkthunder! I'm glad you liked the comparison.
It's true that we all need some form of recreation. You know the saying: All work and no play..
I appreciate your post!
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Darth Vader
Meditation Chamber
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:08 PM
Hey I tried quitting smoking once to no avail. So I kinda know what you are going through. if you accomplish it, you'll have all my respect.
Giving up something that makes you sick (or not have your priorities straight) is indeed a great endeavour. I don't think I've gotten to the point of giving up SW because it distracts me a lot. May be close, but not there yet.
The best of luck!
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JawaJoey
Return of the Jawa
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:12 PM
But if something grips you so much that you feel physically ill if you don't have it...it's become an addiction which is out of control. And it's something that you should probably step away from.
Didn't you say you had a nearly identical reaction with your religion?...Just a thought.
And my Deity likely won't be upset about my liking the saga...but if it gets to the point where the saga has as much priority in my life as He does, then of course He's going to be upset...and He has a right to be!
And that's where I disagree with those beliefs.
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JawaJoey
Return of the Jawa
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:12 PM
Anyways, with your grace and optimism, I don't doubt you'll get through whatever problems you think you have however you see fit.
After trying to think of a good farewell, the best term I can think of to say is: Bon Voyage!
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Knight557
Expanded Universe
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:19 PM
What about undying loyalty to your COUNTRY? This is my list of importance, I think I've got everything in the right order:
1. God
2. U.S.A.
3. Family
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Knight557
Expanded Universe
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:20 PM
I forgot SW at #4 my bad
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:21 PM
Hey I tried quitting smoking once to no avail. So I kinda know what you are going through. if you accomplish it, you'll have all my respect.
Thank you so much for your kind words, Darth Vader! I likewise wish you all the best in your endeavors to quit smoking!
Didn't you say you had a nearly identical reaction with your religion?...Just a thought.
Indeed I did, but you'll notice that 1 Peter 2:2, which I cited but didn't quote in the entry, says that were supposed to form a longing for the Word of God. And once you form that longing, of course, you're going to suffer withdrawal if you don't get your proper nourishment.
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:27 PM
After trying to think of a good farewell, the best term I can think of to say is: Bon Voyage!
Bye, JawaJoey! It's been nice chattin' with ya!
Hi, Knight557!
What about undying loyalty to your COUNTRY?
Patriotism isn't really my thing. Not that I would ever set out to betray my country, but I don't consider it to be any better or worse than any other country. It just happens to be the place where I was born. And BTW, I'm happy to see that God is #1 on your list!
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8061604
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:30 PM
i always say star wars will sooth an unsetled soul
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jeditee
The Jedi Diaries
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:33 PM
i always say star wars will sooth an unsetled soul
LOL! Thanks for your comment, ClOnECAMANDERvince.
And as it turns out, I've spent too much time on SW.com today...I have to be careful about that. Thanks again everyone, for your kind words. Goodnight!
*vanishes* 
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JawaJoey
Return of the Jawa
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 7:34 PM
And drug dealers would say it's okay to be addicted to crack. What would Saudi Arabia say if we asked them for advice on our oil addiction problem? The source of an addiction is not a reliable source of the wisdom of the addiction.
That's what I don't like about religions in general... they seek to substitute people's morals and common senses with their own, when that's really not necessary.
But that's a whole nother discussion.... I'm shutting up now.
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anakinside1
Echoes from the Asteroid Field
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 8:16 PM
Why does this make me so sad? I think because I feel that SW leads me closer to profound truth, not away from it. 
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jedivnsnator
The Trash Compactor
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 9:09 PM
That's what I don't like about religions in general... they seek to substitute people's morals and common senses with their own, when that's really not necessary.
Uh-oh, DV...do you think we should introduce him to my 'Ethics of Cloning' blog and get him all riled up?
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JediMasterPickles
Slowly Turning To The Dark Side!
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 10:14 PM
"What about undying loyalty to your COUNTRY? This is my list of importance, I think I've got everything in the right order:
1. God
2. U.S.A.
3. Family"
Bugger me Knight557, how on earth can you put your country and deity before your own flesh and blood?
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rpm285sm
A Few Thousand Contradictions Walking In Close Formation
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 11:25 PM
Well, if you feel SW is coming between you and your god then you should most certainly do what you think is necessary. I wonder whether the problem is really that you were putting SW on equal footing with your god. You said you started feeling sick when you stopped including SW in your daily life. Personally, I find watching the movies and listening to the music to be very relaxing, so perhaps you began feeling ill because you removed a calming influence from your life. You know what's happening far better than I do, but this was the first thing I thought of when I read your post so I thought I'd share just in case you hadnt thought of it yourself. Best of luck feeling better. I hope you can resolve your priority issues and doubts.
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HannaV
From the other side of Dagobah
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date Posted: Apr 20, 2006 11:41 PM
Hmmmm...as a fellow flu sufferer...maybe you just got a bug
Recovering from viruses or bacteria usually takes days, even weeks...
I think your recovery and your SW effect just seemed to go hand in hand.
Really you were just slightly sick and when you started watching SW, you were already on the road to recovery and the slight mental happiness just pushed the last of the infection away...
If you still like to believe SW is bad for you...I guess I have to wish you good luck. It is your own choice.
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Rogueish
W.I.E.R.D.
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date Posted: Apr 21, 2006 1:23 AM
Here's my simple take on it....
...Don't go Tee.....
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luuke.skywalker
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date Posted: Apr 21, 2006 8:54 AM
Jeditee, I for one support you wholeheartedly. I too feel the need to cut back a bit. A little further from the make-believe GFFA, and closer to the very real Church. Not because any priest or scripture commanded me to, but because in my heart I know what is right. Luminous beings are we...
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Tiawyn
TiaWyn's Star Wars Blog
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date Posted: Apr 22, 2006 5:18 PM
Keep Star Wars. Dump the religion. Both are fiction. Star Wars is much better. Personally, I think Star Wars fans are a lot more sane than most religious people.
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*DarthYoda*
Tales of the Overweight Jedi: Becoming one with the Force one cheeseburger at a time...
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date Posted: Apr 24, 2006 12:35 AM
Jeditee, I think Star Wars could be a tool for you to evangelize, as the saga is filled with religious overtones familiar to Christianity and many other religions. I think the themes in Star Wars may be a path to relate the similartites of serving "the force" and serving God. Maybe God put Star Wars in your life for a purpose. Maybe that is your path to helping others find what they cannot themselves find. Just a thought. Perhaps ....."it is your destiny"........? Good luck to you and I hope you find your path. MTFBWY
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jediracer41
Jediracer
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date Posted: May 01, 2006 1:42 PM
Hey, tee--sounds like you need some major support here. So here it comes. YOU SO GO GIRL!!!!! I will not address any of your other commenters b/c a)it would make me mad and b) it would take up the equivalent of three blogs once I got going. But anyhow, I think this is awesome. I find myself having the same struggle recently, w/ SW taking excessive prominence--except for me, it's a mental thing, I can't get it out of my head. It is so encouraging to know someone else is trying to handle the same obsession.
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jediracer41
Jediracer
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date Posted: May 01, 2006 1:44 PM
I have promised myself to cut back and reclaim control, but...it has not been happening. If anything, the obsessiveness seems to get worse whenever I try to muster resolve. Any techniques you have would be great to know! Major, major kudos to you!
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jediracer41
Jediracer
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date Posted: May 01, 2006 1:46 PM
Although I must say, I will miss chatting with you here in the blogs as frequently. 
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droideikas
####****????!!!!STAR WARS VS. STAR TREK!!!!????****####
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date Posted: May 02, 2006 10:22 AM
WOW
that must have taken a lot of guts to say. I don't think i could've done it, but it is the right thing to do to put God first and I agree totally with all you said about liking it alot without getting sucked in. You are a good influence on us all
Droideikas
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i12bajedi
I'm Making This Up As I Go...
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date Posted: May 02, 2006 7:37 PM
I'm going to miss you, tee, but I understand. While God allows us earthly pleasures, He also wishes us to put Him first.
However, God isn't dictatorial. He will let us do anything we please; we just have to face the consequences, the consequences being His displeasure or even (if we don't believe that Jesus is God's son who died to take away our sins, rose again, and is alive today in Heaven) being denied a place in Heaven.
[I know that belief goes against your religion; but it's my belief. I don't mean to offend you in any way.]
I have experienced this strange 'addiction' myself, but it's always gone away eventually. I wish you all the best, and eagerly await the day when you can come back and post in good conscience.
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jediracer41
Jediracer
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date Posted: May 04, 2006 2:53 PM
Totally, darth yoda.
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the dark side master
The reality
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date Posted: May 08, 2006 9:20 AM
something familiar happened to me.
I am a Liitle( realy Big) obbseeded with the game Kingdom hearts,Kingdom hearts chain of memories and kingdom hearts 2. in fact so obbseded with the game that when I goed to Church the only thing I was thinking was to get home and play the game
I also drawed all the attacks of everyone that appeared in the game, and copied all of the dialogues of the games.
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the dark side master
The reality
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date Posted: May 08, 2006 9:21 AM
but then a friend of mine in a joke telled to me "you have this game as your God"
even that it was a joke it stayed in my heart I where analizing it fore days at first I refused to beliave it but then when I checked everything I have worked on the game I realized that maybe I have prested too much attention to a game. then I said to God that I will not play the game for an entarly weak to see what effect it has on me.today that weak is starting, seven days are left and I allready have the tenttation to go home and play the game,but I cant do that if I hope fore my relation with God grow up every day. but actually it hurt to admit that I may have changed God fore a game
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the dark side master
The reality
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date Posted: May 08, 2006 9:28 AM
any way you dont need to leave something fore ever you just need to give it less attention, thats what I will try to do.
PSS:
I even cryied when I realised I changed God for a human game,
it is like depresing to know that you have changed Him for it
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jediracer41
Jediracer
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date Posted: May 30, 2006 7:11 PM
That's awesome, dark side master! You seem like you have a really strong faith. I pray that you will keep listening to God's direction as you seem to be doing.
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j_katz
Citizen Katz
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date Posted: Jun 14, 2006 7:16 PM
jeditee,
Read John 5:4 in TNWT Bible ...
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Ktbug5384
My life as a Star Wars fan
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date Posted: Jun 29, 2006 8:23 PM
Tee,
Girl, I know about backing away from Star Wars, I really do, I actually, started reading SW Books again after graduation, but Girl, I'm gonna miss you, and your riddles, and your poems, too, but girl, Christian to Christian: You do what you have to, Besides Exodus 20:3 is some serious business, You and I both KNOW that God the great and Mighty Jehovah is a jealous God. He doesn't like things to come between Him and His children, just like any earthly parent, but on a greater scale, Our Heavenly father is awesome, and Tee-girl, I support you 110%! And don't listen to all the nay-sayers that are raking you over the coals for this... they just don't know what we know... ya know? Loves ya!
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jediracer41
Jediracer
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date Posted: Jul 03, 2006 8:50 PM
hey! Like I said, I agree totally with your decision and wish I had the resolve to follow your lead...but I miss getting to cyber-chat w/ you...any other blogs or websites that you frequent?
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