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So here's the official blog...this is the last one concerning this topic (I hope) |
So Friday me and my roomie we out with Cody (sorry..still drunk from tonight...really needed it)...and we went to Wendy's after hanging out for like 5 or 6 hours...or more...I don't remember. We were sitting in the Wendy's parking lot when I realized...that after a week of knowing this guy...I was in love with him. I've watched all these movies where that's happened and was like...that's not possible...yeah I've so been proved wrong. So since then we've hung out and stuff. Tonight I got #### drunk with one of the roommates I was fighting with on Friday night...and finally realized that she was right. I don't have a chance with him. He's bisexual...but more gay than bi. So I was talking to my roomie (she's sober...the one i was fighting with) and told her I needed her help to get over him...then I started crying...I've never cried while drunk...I hardly ever cry. Close friends and family die and I still don't cry. But I cried tonight over him...not a good thing. So yeah...really need to get over this guy that I know that I can't have. See the thing is...he kinda spends half of his time here. That seems to be a problem...I need to be away from him for like a few weeks and maybe I can be friends with him...but I know I need to tell him what's going on or he'll be confused....wow this sucks. AAHHH!!!
Yeah...I need some sober non roommate advice
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greenandwhitejedi
Bar 66
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 4:49 AM
I hope you didn't do anything stupid whilst drunk. It seems like you can remember everything that happened, so that's a good sign.
Speaking as a bloke here, he must have some sort of idea that you're interested. If so, and he hasn't spoken with you about it, that suggests to me that perhaps he is available. Either that or he wants to just be friends, and doesn't want to talk about the bisexuality thing.
That's all I got.
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confusedone
I have the fear of being afraid and I'm on strike against strikes
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 7:01 AM
If I were you and I were in this situation, I would've bashed my head into a wall. I'm glad to see that you didn't. I am really sorry for you. I have had feelings for a guy I've known since 5th grade. We were hanging around with eachother and even when we moved away from eachother, he still came over. I couldn't take it anymore, so I told him how I felt. He understood and we're still friends, but he's more like a loving brother. That's all the experience I have. You better weit for VA2, PS77, or Mina to get in here for some real advice.
Hope everything works out and keep your chim up. 
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haydens_girl1
Star Wars...just a little, only a lot...and then some. Times 2!
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 7:23 AM
Nope...the only head bashing happened when I was sober and trying to do my physics homework!
he must have some sort of idea that you're interested. If so, and he hasn't spoken with you about it, that suggests to me that perhaps he is available
He does know that I have interest in him, and I know for certain that he is single. And he has no problem discussing the bisexual thing...trust me.
but he's more like a loving brother
The roomie that had liked him earlier now too sees him as a brother...so it's cool.
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confusedone
I have the fear of being afraid and I'm on strike against strikes
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 7:28 AM
Nope...the only head bashing happened when I was sober and trying to do my physics homework!
 Oh, I don't know how you do it! Good luck; it'll work out. Try listening to some music; that might help get your mind off things. Or you could watch a movie. Right now I'm blasting my computer speakers listening to some music.
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jediprincess77
I Know...
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 8:53 AM
Oh, dear. I'm so sorry you're going through all this mess! I think you are on the right track, though, in trying to get some time away from this guy for a while. Doing that kind of proves that you can live life without him, or better yet, be happy without him. Would your roommate be understanding enough to help you keep some distance?
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jedi_iain
From A Certain Point Of View
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 9:30 AM
Although I try, I'm really not one to give advice on this subject. (I'm 20 and only ever had one girlfriend.)
But I have to ask, Does he know how you feel?
I'll explain why I ask,
There was this girl I went to school with who I really liked,no actually I was in love with her, but I was a coward and never told her how I felt, we were fairly good friends and I guess I didn't want to spoil that, but still, I really regret not telling her. It's crazy, I haven't seen or spoken to her for 3 years, and I still think about her all the time. I guess I'm still in love with her.
damn it's good to talk about these things, hope this helps, if not, at least I feel better
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confusedone
I have the fear of being afraid and I'm on strike against strikes
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 9:37 AM
IT does feel good to talk about these things, doesn't it? In my instance it's pathetic b/c we're friends, but I still love him as...not a friend. But don't tell his girlfriend that. Now, I'll stop wasting your space so people can come in here with advice.
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jedilily1026
Years Matter Not (Gone Crazy...Be Back Soon)
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date Posted: Sep 04, 2006 2:38 PM
My advice to you: #1. Do u have to get drunk?? Can u have 1 or 2 drinks only. I've never been a drinker only ocassionally at parties, holidays and even then 1 or 2. Too much driniking is not good for you.
#2. He's bisexual...but more gay than bi. So you can still be friends. You've only known him 1 week. You should be able to get over him quickly enough. Think of it this way, you weren't born with him....your life goes on. Sorry if I seem harsh or cruel, but your 21 and you have a lot of time to find the RIGHT GUY. This is what I would tell my daughters if they were in this situation after I let them cry on my shoulder 
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axel droma
axel droma
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 1:45 AM
He's bisexual...but more gay than bi well if that's the case and he just wants to be friends I bet he'd have a blast in helping you find the right guy!
My advice to you: #1. Do u have to get drunk..Too much driniking is not good for you.
from the guy POV in this case i need to tell you that this is a very dangerous path you have chosen to follow, I know. strange things have been known to happen when you're a guy who is plowed. but stranger and infinitely more dangerous thing's have been known to happen to the ladies.......con't
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axel droma
axel droma
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 1:47 AM
....please remeber to hang with a group and don't wander off when you're drunk, get into the habit of looking over your shoulder for your pals. you may look funny doing it, but when you're drunk it's an easy out for weirdeness.
P.S.-check out Broken Lizards "Beerfest" it's the new drinking movie. and it's not just for ####zengiggles.
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padmeskywalker77
Padme's Legacy
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 5:58 AM
Please, please, please be careful. A drink or two every now and then is fine, but I have learned from my mistakes of having had too much to drink (never did drugs). As axel droma said...bad things can happen while under the influence (especially in today's world of date rape drugs and other substances). I have learned never to use alcohol as a coping mechanism...especially with alcoholism in the family. So please be careful with this...I have seen what can happen (and with older teenagers, too, not just young adult women).
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padmeskywalker77
Padme's Legacy
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 5:59 AM
Also, I agree with jedilily on the getting over him part...some of my best male friends have turned out to be gay, but they were not admitting to it in our "younger years" (HS and early college). I had feelings for some of these guys and was "crushed" when they did not return the feelings...but I learned to move on. You have soooo much going for you right now, and it is almost silly to give it all up for a guy. Some time away from him might do some good, but you will eventually have to face him again...and relive the feelings all over again. I just suggest to do what you feel is right in this situation, and work through this...without the influence of alcohol or other similar substances.
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haydens_girl1
Star Wars...just a little, only a lot...and then some. Times 2!
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 8:18 AM
First off...thanks for all of your comments. It means a lot to me that you all care so much. No, I didn't need to drink to cope. I just didn't want to admit that I needed to get over him when I was sober. It took getting drunk to realize that. The way everyone is when they drink is that the truth always comes out. With him being bi...it's not that big of a deal, because I myself am bisexual. The crying def did help me with my issues and I'm not as upset as I was before. I've come to realize that, while I am in love with him, I'm just going to let things play out and see where he stands.
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haydens_girl1
Star Wars...just a little, only a lot...and then some. Times 2!
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 8:18 AM
(con't)
I really don't want to lose him as a friend, because he's a great friend. Today we're having lunch together (hopefully my friends don't get to join...I'd like it to be just the two of us) and I can get some of this off of my chest. It would feel really great to do that. Anyways...thanks for all of your support.
Love always
Jessica
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haydens_girl1
Star Wars...just a little, only a lot...and then some. Times 2!
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date Posted: Sep 05, 2006 6:04 PM
Good news...although my roomies did tag along for lunch, they had class right afterwards, so I got to hang out with him for awhile until my next class. I finally got the courage to say what I had been waiting to say. He knowns I like him. He's currently in his 'guy' phase, but is trying to get over that. After that, he and I are going to discuss things. So he and I are on the same page, which is pretty much all I really wanted. I'm happy.
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