Well hello there everyone! Last time I blogged was about a parsec away in August letting you all know I was trying out for American Idol. Well, the episode I was featured in has come and gone and so much has been happening to me since Tuesday night. But first I would like to start of with an ol' fashioned critique of my performance. In a nutshell, well in my opinion, my audition stank! I certainly did not perform up to my usual potential. I believe it was a combination of a few things:

One- I was exhausted! I was up at 5am, in line at the hotel at 6am, the judges didn't arrive until around noon time, and being the second to last that day, I didn't audition until 5, 5:30pm! Somewhere in between there, I was tired!

Two- I was nervous! Despite my openness in the interviews, my insides were a ripping! And then, I broke the golden rule of AI, I let my nerves get to me. I think this was most definitely reflected in how my pitch, vibrato etc. was off, and how the whole performance was, well, as Randy put it, strange.

and Three: It just wasn't my time. Despite all the awesome people I met that day, including Ryan Seacrest, whom is a sweetheart, as a singer/performer I had a bad day. It happens, oh well. Better luck next time.

And now on to my little tirade thereafter. First off let me apologize to any parents out there that had to go on emergency "damage control" for their younglings. I admit, especially since seeing it, that the language I used was inappropriate for what has proven to be a very family friendly show. I would not encourage anyone to respond and act as the way I did. That's just the immature side of me. I've been working on correcting it for many years. So once again, I apologize.

As far as the whole tangent went, take away the Leia buns and goth outfit, that's pretty much the way I am. Once I start running my big mouth, there ain't no shutting me up! It's a trait I get from my Grandma, God rest her soul (she passed away in 2002, my Grandpa has since re-married). But ask anyone who knows me personally, once something ticks me off, even if it shouldn't, my mouth will speak faster than my head thinks. In fact, in the car on the way home I though to myself "Wow, my audition really did kinda stink. I shouldn't have gone all off on things the way I did." But oh well, it happened and I can't change the past. Only learn from it!

I have also read a few comments on the blogs here that people feel I didn't represent the Star Wars community very well. Let me just say that I was at American Idol for MYSELF and only to represent myself. Had I actually said "Hey, I'm here to represent all my Star Wars buddies", then I can definitely see where people could get upset, or want to cringe. But please, as Star Wars fans, don't be embarrassed over my actions. I'm only one out of millions of amazing people, many of whom I had the pleasure to meet at CIV, which I've yet to blog about, go figure! I am a goofball and a self proclaimed "dork", and I know that not every Star Wars fan is like me. As I've said before, we are a multitude of different and unique personalities and talents. And if some of you feel I was mocking or making fun of myself, it's just a sort of guard I put up. Better to laugh first than to be laughed at!

All in all, once again, I have to say that I hold no regrets with my experience with American Idol. And even though I stand by my opinions expressed in my pathetic lil' tirade, I do feel the show has brought to us some amazing talents such as Kelly Clarkson, Chris Daughtry, and one of my faves, Carrie Underwood. I hope this season does the same.

Like I said in the beginning of this blog, a lot has been happening to me since Tuesday night. Not 5 minutes after the show went off air, the phone calls began, one being from Access Hollywood. Wednesday was the brunt of the phone calls, radio stations from Philly, New York, Phoenix, Detroit, and Los Angeles etc. Then I got a call from the Maury Povich show in New York asking if I wanted to come down and perform on an "Undiscovered Talents" show theme. I agreed and look forward to it next week. I'll be sure to let you all know when the show will air. Also I've been invited by two of the local radio stations up here to perform at an event each of them is sponsoring. There was also a really awesome article on me in one of my local newspapers, The Journal Inquirer. I'll see if I can post the article and the pic on another blog. Who knows what could come out of all of this. I take my love for music and singing very seriously, and though I may not have the best voice ever, if the opportunity is given for my voice, music and lyrics to be heard around the world, that would really be a dream come true. But for now, I'm taking it all in stride, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I'm not allowing myself to become to overly excited, because you never know when the dream will be over.

Anyway, I hope I was able to explain myself well here. But please, please don't feel embarrassed over me or by me. I'm only one person. I will say though, that Ben Haar fella had by far the best outfit! I need to get me one! I was chatting with him at the auditions, and yes, he was only there to get on TV. He was told by the two exec. producers that the only way they would let him go in front of Simon, Randy and Paula was if a camera crew could tape him getting....waxed...OUCH! I found it pretty humorous.

Well anywhos, until next time, May the Force be with us ALL! Tata for now!

Yours truly,
The "Star Wars Girl"
a.k.a. Christina

P.S. I've decided that if I were to try out again for American Idol, I'm gonna leave the buns at home!