Hello there. Well, as I sit here on a Saturday night staying home behaving myself, I started thinking about all of this.... this whole blogging thing, and how recently I have been feeling very uninspired to do so. Don't know what it is.... my love for Star Wars is still there, and I still check out this site often (i.e. freakishly two to three times a day) and comment as much as possible and where and when I feel is necessary, but I just really haven't felt the.... need... to blog on a regular basis. I don't know, perhaps it has to do with the fact that I often have trouble putting all of my thoughts down on "paper".... I'm not a writer. I enjoy doing this immensely, whether it's reading and commenting on entries or chatting with folks off-site, but I am rather disappointed with myself. Reading back through others' blogs and looking at all of their older entries, it just seems I'm really slackin'. Bleh.

Many bloggers have at least 50 or so posts by the time they reach their one-year mark, and I only have 17, including this one (the file number at the bottom of this doesn't reflect all of them, one was deleted rather quickly as soon as it posted; when it posted I re-read it and thought "Gee, that isn't what I wanted to say at all!", and so it was deleted and posted a week later, all tidied up). And honestly, some of my entries aren't even full blogs or anything... there are a few that were like, "Hey, check out these funny links!" and such. Maybe it's just me, but I really don't feel motivated to blog every SW thought that pops into my widdle head. And I'm wondering what that means, if it in fact means anything. I just don't feel the need to blah blah blah! everything, there are many things I just wanna keep to myself.

Hmmm, perhaps that is an issue I have.... keeping things to myself, not being open enough.... I'll have to work on that. Netherworld of the Force knows I have enough good friends here who are legendary at blogging....

I sometimes get depressed that quite often there are blogs written by people who are half my age who are twice, if not 10 times more talented than I, and with much more frequency, but what can I say that hasn't already been said - I'm not a writer, never really have been. Tried to keep a journal in high school, mostly because of an English class requirement, but all I could really come up with was "Had a good day" or "Today was... another day". Good grief... how did I ever finish high school?

When I decided to sign up for Hyperspace and start a blog and stop lurking (although that was very brief) and start communicating with all of you (us) insane people, I basically thought that I would do a few entries, comment on a few random posts here and there, and that would be it. I was wrong about both, and my time here has been hilarious, serious, joyous, and life-altering. Really. I started this, and continue to do this for fun, and I suppose I need to remind myself that this is not a contest. And also that there is nothing wrong with only blogging when the mood really strikes me, albeit not that frequently.

Geesh, this is really sounding like a "My First Year Here" post, but Hell, I wasn't really gonna do one.... We'll see.....

So anyway, as I am sitting here reflecting on my time here on the site, with my first anniversary coming up in February, it dawns on me that there are very few people who know that I do this. Many SW online friends of course, including 3 people from here I have met IRL, but no one else! My sister knows that I chat with people online, and I sorta told my mother that I do (she said, "Oh.... that's... neat..." God love her), but that's it. They don't know that it has anything to do with SW, or that I have a blog on the Official Star Wars website for the whole galaxy, or that I've met people from the internetz, just that I "talk" to people online. And that's it as far as IRL is concerned. No non-sw.com friends. No co-workers. Nobody!

I like it like that, too. No complaints here, I really like the fact that I have this very cool thing I do with very cool people, and it's sorta my own little secret. Besides, I don't want anyone I know in my real-world life to come "looking for me" here. Do ya know what I mean?!

Now, of course we all have our different thing that we do as far as this is concerned, and have our own "glitches" (Reality Bites Alert!), and that is so very cool as well. Many of us have friends, children, and other close people in our lives with whom we not only share our love for SW, but also our blogs. I really think that's great... and brave, after all... it can get really personal in here!

Perhaps in the future I will decide to share this wild lovely world with those I know... my friends and family... but for now, I'm content with only being who they see in front of them, and not Sarlacc-Pitt.


SO, what I really wanna know is....


Who knows that you do this? And why?








And how?





And where?













What?