This is my last entry, after that my free trial ends, and I want to dedicate it to the reasons (if I can call them such) star wars touches me.
now I have to warn you that this is going be a little kitsch, but that is part of who I am, I guess.

I'm 19 years old, new to SW and currently at home, studying things I don't like so one day, if I'll want to, I will be able to go to collage. The first SW film I've seen is TPM, I went to see it while it was playing in theaters and I remember thinking that this is the most boring movie I've ever seen in my life. Years went by, I grew up a bit and few months ago I opened my TV and there was SW-ESB. I knew what the story is about for the most part (the bad guy is the father of the good guy...) and got sucked into it completely. Then I sew the rest of the films in no reasonable order (I actually sew ANH last and sew ROTS before AOTC...a mass!), and yet, here I am, a very newstar wars fan.

So, why do I like SW? for many reasons, "small" things that make this saga so perfect, but I'm not here to talk about those. there is a reason I relate to this saga at that particular stage in my life, and that is
Because of the promise it holds, the promise to take you to places far from the here and now, places where magical things happen.

I love my home, certainly, but still, I can't help but feel a little captured here, by my own choices. many times I looked from the window of my room at the single sun setting on the mountains surrounding me, and wished i could see beyond them. you can imagine my amazement when i sew for the first time that scene with Luke and the two suns. "this is just like me" i thought. and i was under the impression that i'm the only one looking at the sun like that...silly me. the reason i was looking is because i longed to see beyond the mountains- SW takes me beyond them, not only with the fun it provides me for a cuple of hours, but with the thougts that stay with me after it, like a reassuring presence that says to me "take it easy, one day at a time".

usually i hate it when movies use my emotions and create scenes that just force you to shed a tear even if the movie is bad (the end of armageddon for instance..), it makes me feel very cheap and used, but star wars makes you laugh and cry (a little) without insulting your intelligence, and that's why i let myself be so taken with this saga.

I hope you don't feel cheated, because this entry is about the effect SW have on my life rather than a grocery list of things i like within the movies. it's about where these films take me emotionly...and they take me to all kinds of places...
Through SW things I see, other places. The future, the past, old friends long gone...

It makes me think about my boarding school in the desert, where I spent three years of fun and started to really discover who I am, what a person and a friend I can be. The surroundings there are very much like those of Tatooin, but we didn't have bars (and weren't allowed to drink...mm). when Han speaks about his smuggling i remember all the times we tried to smuggle drinks and dumped them at the first sign of school teacher (because what we did have is teachers who were as creepy as some of the creatures in the Mos Eisley cantina).

It makes me think about my gang, my very own Han, Leia, Chewie, 3po...and most of them are abroad right now (my best friend is in the USA and I hope you guys who live there are not as crazy as you seem...I'm jokeing of course.. ), and exactly like Luke, I'm here, with a whole another year of boring studies before me. And it makes me miss them even more.

And SW reminds me that not long from now I will actually leave my home for good, I'll be in some airport at ridiculous hours, heading towards new places, and it makes the moments here, with my family very precious and not something just to go through as fast as I can so I will be free to go.
actually SW made me call to my dad (we didn't speak for a long time), It made me understand how important this is for me and for him to be in touch, how really strong the bond between family members really is.

STAR WARS is a constant reminder to me that the restraints and limitations are only in my mind, that I have the freedom to choose my straits; they are my course to action. I love it, I love the way it peels through the layers of cynicism and truly makes you believe. That is the core, that is the heart of the saga, I think. It's so fun to have discovered this saga and I get to explore it with the DVD's I bought and watched countless times by now. I've never been truly obsessed with something or liked a movie or a book that much, but SW defiantly changed that. I'm only at the very beginning of my journey with SW; there are so many things I don't know yet, so many books too read and costumes to make and tiny details to notice, that you old SW fans already know.

So goodbye to any of you who read my few entries, and who knows, maybe I'll come back...I'll transform back into the blogs in one way or another...


may the force be with you!