One of my favorite things about SW in general is that I am so conflicted about many things. My opinions vascillate and I can see the same situations from multiple points of view. It makes for endless 'what ifs' and 'playing Sith's advocate' and is wildly entertaining. That being said, let me begin my blog with one of my very favorite topics.

Mr. & Mrs. Skywalker. Anakin & Padme.

I love them. I absolutely do. What's not to love (aside from their inability to articulate their feelings in a mature way, but that's a whole other thing. I was rooting for them, hoping against hope, eventhough I knew it all ended tragically, that everything would work out, somehow. When the inevitable played itself out, I accepted it as necessary to the story as laid out. But only to a point. I had a Denial of Death issue that I know Ernest Becker couldn't speak to and it was just killing me. So, I did what any self-respecting Dame of Denial would do, I went and sought out some fan fic that would make me feel better.

With that done, I've had some time to sit back and think about the destiny ravaged couple and now I have to ask... Are they the galaxy's worst parents or what?

Upon viewing ROTS, I had a whole WTF moment from the time Ani issued the force-choke on his beloved right through Padme's demise. Jedi Order & politics aside, what in the name of Courscant was he thinking? Granted, Anakin had been under a tremendous amount of stress for a time and he was a tad emotional, but still. Spare her, if not for her for the child. When he did this, I thought back to his expression when she told him they we're expecting. You know, that half-second look where he seems to be thinking, "And this is supposed to be a good thing?". Could it be that he didn't care about his progeny to begin with?

Then there's Padme. By all accounts she seemed pleased to be pregnant and was looking forward to being a mother. That being the case, I cannot for the life of me understand why she chose death. I know she loved Anakin and was heartbroken by his fall but she was also a determined, sometimes stubborn, strong young woman. Her Senatorial status aside, she was a former Queen of Naboo and people relied on her. She had the determination to fly to Mustafar to intervene on her errant husband's activities after lying to Obi-Wan about his whereabouts. This is the woman who choses death? This is the woman who leaves her newborns in the care of of others, in a galaxy swallowed by darkness? I think she had more reason to live with the birth of the children. If nothing else, to protect them from thier father. Instead, she left them behind. She left them in a world she would not exist in, but had a hand in creating. She left them to a fate she herself would not accept.

It seems it turned out that in the end, after all was said and done, Anakin and Padme only had room in their hearts for each other and themselves. A thing that sheer biology couldn't overcome.

But that's just how I'm seeing it right now. As with all things, it's subject to change without notice and go in a completely different direction.