" You're not all-powerful, Ani`. " Padme` Amidala

" I should be! Some day I will be! I will be the most powerful Jedi ever! I will even learn to stop people from dying. " Anakin, EP II

For the past month or so, I've been really feeling this conversation between Anakin and Padme`, there's so much meaning,emotion, and foreshadowing behind it. Not too mention, it can relate in so many ways to our own individual lives.

" Sometimes there are things no one can fix. " So true, yet there's a loop hole twisted within this statement as well. Especially in Anakin's case. When the dust had finally settled upon Anakin consciousness and he replayed his actions of avengence on the Tusken Raiders, the guilt came thru. Though he felt remorse during the after math, he also discovered something else; his first RUSH of Adrenaline, a HIGH.

This was his first drink, drug, an escape of his reality; sort of speak. Taking that first sip, puff, or injection was a relief and it felt good. During those events at the Tusken Camp, there was no control or grief for what he did.
" It's all Obi-Wan's fault! "
He also casted blame esle-where, before he admitted his confessions to Padme`. A common sign in addicts or one soon to be. Anakin's slow turn to the Dark Side and rise as a Sith Lord, was in a lot of ways similar to an addiction to alcohol or substance abuse.

Each time he slid down the path to Darkness, the more addicted he became.(slaying of the Raiders, Dooku's murder, aiding in Windu's death, the purge on the Temple, taking the lives of younglings, and eventually endangering and becoming abusive to whom he loved most; Padme`). Each taste of his addiction, extinguished the goodness inside of Anakin,
until eventually, it consumed him; Darth Vader.

For years he cast blame on others for his actions. It wasn't until
someone brave enough who had the will and the compassion to
intervene with the diseased, shattered shell of a man and proceed with a successful intervention. Luke, thank the Maker for, Luke. He knew the only way his Father could ever over come the Disease of the Sith, was to make Anakin see that there was an illness, that his true self was still there, that he had only forgotten and allowed the addiction to consume him and wash away all the guilt, shame, remorse, responsibility.....the wrongdoings of Anakin Skywalker. He had to hit "rock bottom" in order to see the light once again. Anakin had to want it, to restore his true self, only then could he return to reality, to the " good man " Luke & Padme` believed was still there.

I truly believe that Anakin was diseased by the Sith. He lost himself in the "feeling" of guiltless pleasure of no consequence. In the process of his fall, he lost everything that was sacred and all that he had loved. As do most addicts of drug abuse or alcohol abuse, some can over come there sickness and begin a new life. Though, like Anakin, those who have subject themselves and their loved ones to the abuse of such addictions, must WANT TO STOP IT. It is up to the addict not their family, to achieve this, that person must help themself to restore the balance and harmony into those lives once more.

No matter how much Padme` pleaded with Anakin to leave with her and leave everything else behind; "Sometimes there are things no one can fix."
This was something that her love for Anakin could not mend, see, Anakin had to do it himself....he had to WANT IT.
To all of those who suffer and battle alcohol abuse & substance abuse, I feel your pain more than you know. Remember, there is plenty of help out there for the addict and their family, it is a disease. Please seek help as soon as you know there is a problem, don't wait. In most cases, it is not hopeless, normalcy can be restored and the abuse will cease. ONLY if that individual seeks and WANTS help to stop it.

~Angel~
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